So, everyone who doesn't have my facebook or twitter is probably wondering what on earth happened to me? Yes, I've been gone for awhile...
Honestly, I've gone back to this post about 3 or 4 times now...trying to bring myself to post it and actually stick to my word about working out again. I think I'm stable enough now to do so, but why was I away for so long?
Well, what I never told anyone on the blog was that my dad was suffering from cancer. Shortly after I started my blog, he just kept getting worse and worse. We found out it was terminal and that he had 3 weeks to live the day I made my last blog post awhile ago. I was very close to my dad, and it hurt. It hurt a lot more than I was willing to admit to anyone.
I stopped training. I literally went there every day to see my dad...and he slowly went downhill every time I saw him. He lived up to the 3 weeks the doctor had given him.
He died in June, and I honestly couldn't bring myself to work out or even write a blog. He was such a huge supporter of me doing it and keeping up on this blog. I knew he read it because he would always comment on something from it the next time I saw him. Even now it's still hard to write....it sucks knowing I wont hear a comment from him again.....
To those who have ever lost someone so dear to them...I know how it feels. And to those who have yet to feel such pain, I almost envy you. I would wish this pain on no one.
But life goes on, whether we want it to or not.
I've become sort of unfit again. I've tried to stay up with it, but honestly it was like without my dad's physical motivation here to support me, I just couldn't find the will to do it.
But I know spiritually he's with me, watching me. And I know he would want me to get back on the horse and do it again. Especially if I wanted to. And truly I do. I loved the way I felt when I was getting fit and active. And of course, it sucks knowing I have to get up to that point all over again. But I'm ready for the challenge!
And if you're wondering if I ever went on my Zombie run??? Well I did!! And I was 'turned' into a Zombie. It stunk because it was right at the last minute too before I crossed the finish line. But oh well. It is what it is.
It was still loads of fun, and I would recommend it to anyone who wants to be active but yet still have a good time while doing it.
Anyway, as I start up my training again, I'll try and keep my blog updated every Friday.
But before I go, here are some pictures from my run! :)
AFTER THE RACE
Have an awesome and productive rest of the week everyone!
-Kala
